To Staind Please tell me what you think!

To Aaron and the boys here is what your illusion of progress has done for me
This is what 7 years of bad marriage can do and how you have helped me through it!!!

Since you have Staind my life
I am finally able to speak the words that would not come out
from all the feelings of hate and doubt
Like Mudshovel for all my anger and pain
that was bottled up inside making me feel like I was going insane
with all my schizophrenic conversations
which led to my means to medicate
due to the king of all excuses to me and his zoe jane
while I just needed someone to talk to, while he was to busy with hisself
and it made me feel like the devil that I swear I am not
and these are just a few that are in your pot
for I can keep going to the times that I thought about everything changing
and now that I was older letting some of the anger fade
but still being afraid to come back home
because he had all the words to keep me right here waiting
to find that all my troubles are still the same
and wondering if this is my cross to bear because I believed in him
all to see that it was raining again
and now I have to say pardon me while I turn my back
not listening to the things he says because I can't fake it
while he still believes and needing to just break away
while you come and save me for the fuck of it
and take me so far away and now you fill me up
and you are in my veins just when I started to suffocate
and feel like I would self destruct
for I have a little zoe jane to think about
wanting to make sure she does not come to me one day to say
here is a song for you because this is the price that was paid to play your game
for yesterday that I was made to tolerate which is how I feel
with the scars of my own reality
and now I have to say that it's been a while
and I to say this is it and this is the way I am
I need to believe in myself
because of all the love that was lost and found along the way
and now there is nothing left to say!!
By Justus "Amanda" The Southern Staind Fan