Merry Christmas right, wow... writting my songs helps it's kinda therophy for me(can't spell today im just whatever) but, you get what im saying. 29YRS old and Im tired of being on all these "antidepressents and xanax" well the xanax is kinda nice but, it's all getting old. I've been on 8 different anti depressents and it's just all the same old shit with different fucking side effects. So, I ask this... I know no one can give me an answer about the company I work for closing it's doors but, Aaron if your reading this you've been through alot of shit yourself i've been going through this since really I was in 4th grade. Or anyone else at that matter. I even told my doctor I was thinking about just dropping all of these meds and smoke out again. He wasn't against it but, said not enough "medical evidence" that proves bud helps. Honestly, I would never take my own life in my past before my kids have I thought of it hell yea but, I can see why and where people get to that point. Its just old already bro... I know it sounds like im whinnnnnnnnning and I can't stand winnning but, I just need to vent and really no one to talk to or at least anyone that would even UNDERSTAND what the fuck im going through. lol now this with losing of the job fucking blows! Whatever... any serious suggestions notice the word SERIOUS please! To me this isnt a joke at all I don't wish this shit on anyone! Yes I go to thero's and etc. WTF.... LATER! The new video is cool.