2009 was the craziest of my 33 years; it was full of changes and reality checks. The economy caused me to lose a job that I held for 13 years in late April. As the dust was settling from that my fiance revealed she had a 5 year drug addiction the worst of which was to one known as Ice (Meth). This broke me down to my core. I found myself contemplating my end and rationalizing to myself that the world really didn't give a fuck if I was a physical part of it or not. I later would discover that this was the beginning of a powerful transition that would empower me to completely reinvent myself. The point of all of this is that with help from the music of Staind and Aaron Lewis, lots of praying, and the love of a few amazing friends I was able to see myself through this devastating nightmare of a year. I want to thank the members of staind for sharing their music with me and helping me find a dim light to walk towards during the darkest days of my life.