For as long as I can remember I have never fit in. Then again? I'm not sure if I ever really wanted to. From a very young age alcohol and drugs were a way for me to feel OK. They made me smarter, funnier and of course better looking. I have spent countless hours of my life alone and wasted. The only other thing I would allow to join my party is music. When I was wasted with my music I could escape and dream big. But thats all it was. A big dream......better yet a fucking nightmare. This went on for years. In the meantime I have gone through countless dead end jobs. Relationships with people were very difficult. Although while I was out there. I knew of Staind. As a matter of fact I have always had a connection with Aarons words. They have always helped me to identify that someone feels the way that I do. All the pain and all the happiness he speaks of are me. From Tormented...I mean who hasn't wanted to be the guy at the end of 4 Walls. Blowing the back of their head off cause it its not worth it anymore All the way to IOP... who doesn't want to love someone as much as the lyrics in Tangled Up in You. I am sober some time now and listen to Staind on a daily basis. Some of the meanings to the music have changed for me. I don't feel utterly depressed all the time anymore. Do ever notice how Aaron almost always flips the meaning to his songs at the end ever so subtle. I'm that subtle change. I truly don't know if I would be having the life I have today with out Staind. It sounds crazy but I believe it to be true. I would love to hear other stories about getting sober. And if Staind or music in general has helped you along the way. I ramble...but I'm an Alcoholic and a sober one.