well i wrote this a while ago i wrote this in spanish and then i translate to english so i dont know if is good translate... sorry my english if someone can fixed thats ok by me...

this is call MY PAIN...

MY PAIN...

You are enigmatic
another type of pain, you are stronger than the physical
you leave a big void inside of me, a great void that nothing can fill
I feel like I'm missing something, i dont know what but something is missing

i'm broken
you make me lose my faith in everything
you make me wonder what is my place in this world
or if I just take up space
you make me question about my own existence

I feel that nobody listens, nobody cares about me
a wasted life , with nothing of value
you make me less then nothing
someone invisible and unimportant

Can being around people and still feel all alone
inside i'm alone
but I dont want to be alone
you take me away from any sign of joy and companionship

I want to come back to when I was a child
and everything seemed so easy, less complicated
when i dont knew you
when you were a unknown concept for me

If I can not feel love or company
then I prefer not to feel anything at all
neither pain or suffering
i want to be an empty shell

I dont think beyond the moment
If i hate this present, the future looks so dark
because you always be by my side
I fell into disgrace and can not do anything about it

the Only thing I'm good is in hiding you
I feel if i let the world know about you is a sign of weakness
that's my dilemma
Ask for help or suffer in silence?

I do not remember the last time that i look in the mirror
i hate my own reflection
what i become

Leave me alone, you've already absorbed all of me
You take away my hopes and dreams
Give me a break
why dont you let me go? why you make me your slave?
Why am your favorite victim?